"Don't forget, you are always on our minds"

So maybe not the best fortune to start this blog off with. To be honest, the first thing I thought when I opened up the cookie that this fortune was in and read it was "well, thats creepy". Whose mind am I on? The cookie's? And why does this cookie have multiple minds? And how could I forget when this is so irrational and creepy?

Normally fortunes about love are simple and give you a moment of "ahh, that is so true" or "wow,  I can totally relate to that". This one .. well, not so much. For instance, I once had a cookie that read "If you want to be loved, love and be lovable". That is so simple, but yet so true. No one can dispute that fact .. that truly if you want to be loved, all you have to do is be lovable and love in return. No one can resist a lovable, loving person. Only someone who is not lovable and loving would be able to resist. But that is neither here nor there.  Back to our creepy fortune.

To be completely frank, after getting past the creepy factor of my fortune, it kind of hit home. I don't know who ever said that it is impossible to love two people at the same time, but after living it, I completely and whole heartedly believe it. I don't think it is possible to share the same love with any two people, but to be in love with or intimately love two people at the same time is absolutely possible. So it is only reasonable to assume that while I was in love with two people at the same time, they were in love with me. Hence, the fortune became personal for me and I had that second fortune cookie moment of "wow, I can totally relate to that".

In my moment of confusion and conflict during this time (not during the fortune cookie reading, but actually during that period of my life) it became very easy for me to become selfish and self-centered. I began to think, "what is it that I need to do to understand myself and get what I want out of this". Which, of course, is reasonable since our self happiness is in the forefront of our minds and our actions since we are only human (aka animals). But in doing so, I neglected the feelings and emotions of the other two people involved and took advantage of their kindness and devotion to me. I acted on impulse and rarely thought through my actions in my attempt to work out this conflict.

Without getting into too many details (because I know I could go on and on about this topic and I am sure it will be one revisited in fortune cookie discussions to come), I began to self-destruct and take down the two people that cared and loved me the most with me. I wasn't healing and allowing myself to grow, and by doing such, I wasn't allowing those that loved me to do the same. 

My point here is, the actions we take always have an effect on those around us, particularly those that are closest to us and love us the most.  And while it is important to do the things that will bring happiness to ourselves, we should be mindful of what effect it will have on these people, and be careful with their feelings as well.

"Don't forget, you are always on our minds."